i've quit now for about 2 months. it might be 3 actually.

the problem is though when i get drunk. i have lapsed about 6 times when this has happened. in total had about 5 single drags and 1 full cigarette.

but i'm not going down that route that i've been dowm so many times when i've started again. on each occasion, i've woke up the next day - been really mad with myself - and kept on not smoking. sure i've definitely given up in my head but i just see this drunk thing as the last hurdle. i really have to overcome it. it's hard though when you have a beer in your hand and someone next to you lights up.

the main thing is i'll now not smoked about 93 x 20 = about 2000 cigarettes since I stopped. jesus christ. if you look at it that way, i feel GREAT!