Back to the topic... ;)

I guess if there is a hardcore ideology it would be for it to be a way of life... Total immersion in the music, the people, the parties and everything in life that went with it...

Since i left university and joined the 'real world' of work i've steadily lost touch with what it all really meant to me with the change in my priorities... To be honest i'm pretty ****ing resentful of what's happened and i'm only beginning to realise now how far of the path of ideals i've really gone.. The dreams i had 3 years ago have been slowly quoshed by reality and it's sucking the energy out of me.....

It's something i've had to do in order to eventually get back onto it though.. Pay off debts, make some money, get my own house and get to a place where i can rejoin that lifestyle and sustain it, without being answerable to anyone..

Musically i've given more thought to what makes me tick and it's only after reading elsewhere that i found the words to describe what i love about hardcore... I love music to have a narrative, something in the music that has a progressesion but doesn't necessarily have to convey a message.. You can apply that globally to every influence of good hardcore. I guess a narrative is at the heart of the artists expression, without which the music, as Ben Kidney has touched, lacks heart....