This recognision thing. It scares me big time. I'm happy thank you very much doing my little thing, playing the sounds of hard techno and hard trance to people who genuinely love that music. And half the appeal I'm sure, to the people I play to, is the fact it's underground, fresh, new and exciting. Once it starts getting recognised commercially - it looses its appeal. But it's that line between underground and commercialism which is so hard to see these days.

If Mixmag would have phoned me up today and told me we're doing an article about hardstyle and I was the only person they were interviewing about it, I would have thought twice about doing it. Seriously. But it wasn't like that. He was writing it no matter what because I was one of 4 people he was interviewing. So I had to get my point across. Someone has to represent this damn thing properly or else we all turn into a fad (not saying Tobe and Ginge don't know but I reckon I know what I'm talking about when it comes to hard trance.). In fact when the journo actually told me what angle he was coming from I nearly died! So I spent 3 hours writing the above to clear it all up.

But FFW a few months. Perhaps Hardstyle becomes a huge buzz word? And I'm getting alsorts of people asking me about it? And I have to tell people about it cause I'm trying to represent it properly (from an underground point of view) but it all gets blow up to big? What the hell do I do? I can't help feeling I've stepped on the f*ckin slope and there's going to be no way off. Perhaps the slope is good, perhaps it's bad. I just don't know.

God it's all happening at once. Call me paraniod if you will but it is my life - 24-7-365!!!!!!