Plus as well as that i'm on disability benefit which means after food, petrol for my car and a new shaver blade every week which cos I got eczema I have to keep my head shaved so I can put my creams on my head and shaving everyday blunts it like hell (I go through a braun cutter and foil every week), i've got about £50-£60 a week to save for equipment. Which is piss all when trying to save for synths etc... But all this leads to a severe lack of confidence and quite a bit of depression. Sometimes i'm fine and feel inspired but most of the time I feel like i'm just no way near as good a producer as I am a dj. (So people say, i'm supposedly the best dj in boston, maybe lincolnshire. Although I dont think I am so dont do anything about it.But people telling me that makes me feel good)