Iv always stuck to what i believe in. Iv had to, i mainly play across the board harcore techno ie. from slow Nu skool gabber to break neck speedcore. The fact i play that mainly isnt a choice id love to play hard trance/techno out as much and to be honest its happening alot more recently.
So when u say that u were the kid who back at parties played techno to house heads, im the same but in a more hated get him off the dex sense! Even hard trance and techno lovers despise hardcore techno and thats a fact, my good m8 Saki Nzyme(whos on this forum) whinges when im at his and i bang on some new Rebel Scum.hehehehe(tho that is why i play it there.hah!) I know exactly what ur saying also about wanting the other people 2 understand ur/our music. You try ur hardest dontcha but their oblivious to any reason. Tho at the same time i love doing it, its one of the many reasons i love playing what i do.
As for you wanting to play 2 big crowds and getting it across to more ppl, thats not being commercial thats just damn normal. I love it. I played b2b with Dolphin at the North xmas party in the main room 12-1.15 and thats the most ppl iv ever played hardcore techno to (about 600 in the main room) the busiest iv ever seen it and it was the most excilarating feeling ever, both me n greg agreed that it was one of if not the best set we'd played and gregs played out a fair more years than i have. Iv played trance/techno 2 alot more but it wasnt the same 2 me. So i know completely where your coming from as i reckon most on this forum do. We all have the same strong feelings for our scene, we just think that we can benefit them differently at times
Mike