look i didn't like your past contributions here, but i believe no one is perfect and i don't think you are a bad person.
this forum is a misrepresantation of who we are in real life. your story is really sad, but don't be so easy to give up hope. you are a techno warrior.
i think best solution for this is to give back to gunjack(though admittedly i never heard his sound), and throw a party for him.
gunjack, dj amok is huge now, couldn't he do something?
i hope for the best for your family.
allah seninlen olsun.